the boxer

we'll go get a drink after, he said. if you want.

dutch treat. etymology: 'The phrase "going Dutch" originates from the concept of a Dutch door. Previously on farmhouses this consisted of two equal parts'.*

"you know, that one episode, where she goes to the poetry reading. not poetry. it was—essays? stories? yes, like this. well. only not open for critique."

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"let's take bets on if he shows up," she said, and I laughed, at any rate.
he surprised me, at any rate.
I can't help wanting to watch him. I make notes, like he's a character I'll put in a book someday: smart; has money—or ways of making it—

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crystalline, our 'wants'
overwrought, 'passion' 'desire'
'yearn' 'ache' 'longing' All of them
useless, the pit of useless words, I
relegate them to

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I write a poem to the stars, attempting 'romance' / Stars: will you 'love' me? / the moon no longer does / I / 'miss' / you can suffice / carry my words in original lamp-light, at night / be someone or something for me to hand them to /